Day Nineteen

I woke up in time to only do 44 minutes on the elliptical.  My visions of an ironman workout dispelled, but that was definitely better than nothing, and my scale is back to the 3, which is half of the upward fluctuation I was concerned about yesterday. 

I want to thank everyone who made positive comments to me about my project and about my blog.  I appreciate it very much.  I am a pretty private person, but I think a little support will go a long way for me on this.

I opened myself up, I guess, for whatever comments may come my way, but, if you want to be supportive, let me tell you a little bit about what I don't need.  I don't need weight loss advice. As I explained, I already read everything on the subject, and I have decades of experience making this body more fit.  I know what I need to do, I just need to seriously do it. 

Number two--I am under no delusions that I am going to lose all the weight I want to lose in the 100-day timeframe.  However, this is a psychological issue even more than a physical one, and I need to believe that I MIGHT lose the weight in order to stay motivated to continue this.  So, please do not tell me that I cannot do it.  I don't need to be saved from disappointment at the end.  I need to make the biggest impact on my weight problem I can possibly make, and that is going to require me to believe that this will take me far.  

Three, I do not need my own project mansplained to me.  I already know what it is and what it is not. I'm hoping this blog can help others with their struggles, too.  

I left work realizing that nothing really tempted me today.  I ate the healthy things I brought, and didn't think about food otherwise.  That felt good.

 Supper was homemade macaroni and cheese, which means I made the cheese sauce with whole wheat flour and real cheese.  I cooked fresh green beans with tiny-chopped ham and fresh tomatoes.  I had a small serving of the mac and cheese and a large serving of the vegetables.  I had a second small helping of the sugar-free pudding my husband made me on Sunday.  

 The homemade rolls that I thought would be gone are still hanging around.  I was tempted to have one this morning, but remembered that I'd blogged the other one would be the last.  I was tempted again to have one while I was cooking dinner, but remembered that I would be eating noodles, so that was enough flour right there.

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  1. arts enthusiastMay 9, 2019 at 4:44 PM

    ONLY 44 minutes on the elliptical? The elliptical is really hard! Way to go.

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