Day Thirty-One

Today was hard for different reasons.

 For some reason, those three small eggy "brownies" really filled me up.  I didn't feel like making dinner, but I don't live alone, by any means, so I did.  I did not have a huge serving of lasagna, but it really filled me up.  And I'd left the cream cheese out to be room temperature for more brownies, so I went ahead and threw them together just before bedtime.  I felt like I should have at least one small one, to see if they were any better.

 I felt so full all night that I couldn't sleep.  I got maybe two hours, and then was literally up in the night.  The full feeling never went away.  At three-thirty, I finally took another half-dose of sleeping pill, and then, of course, I couldn't get up to go to the gym.

 I was rushed getting out of the house, anyway, so I decided to fast for a family member today instead of tomorrow, which I had considered doing.

 Even though I still felt full for at least half the morning, the fasting was hard.  I wanted water, at least.  By ten, I felt weak.  I decided to just take it hour by hour and get through the day.  I had a lot of work to do today, and I only made a couple of small, correctable mistakes, so I did well.  

 I made it through and hurried home to some leftover lasagna and sugar-free brownies.  Not the flourless ones, though.  

 I still haven't had sugar, and I am still making myself do my bedtime abs every single day.  Even tonight, I did them.

 I'm going to indulge in my sugar-free cocoa and go to bed early.

 I usually gain weight for some reason when I fast, so I am not expecting anything great to happen.  I just want to make sure I have time to get enough both sleep and exercise before morning is full upon me.

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