Day One Hundred Four

I got a good workout this morning: 45 total minutes on the elliptical interspersed with abs and weight-lifting.  My weight was back down to the **0.  Even though I had my bunny last night, and a candy bar the day before.

 But I want to talk about that.  The first day, the little vanilla cookie thing, that did not seem like a lot of sugar to eat.  That's part of why it tormented me in the last weeks of no sugar--it was not a big deal.  The candy bar felt like a bigger deal.  And that's the mentality I honestly want to have--that a candy bar is more sugar than I really ought to eat.  The bunny felt like too much, too.  And today, someone brought several kinds of pie.  I had a half-piece of chocolate and a half-piece of cherry.  I am keeping my rule of one or none.

 But I think I should not necessarily have one thing of sugar every day.  I like the feeling of going to bed knowing I have not had anything that would make me fatter.  I might even like that more than I like eating something with sugar in it.  I have been lucky so far that my weight is still stabilizing, but I know eating a lot of sugar would catch up with me.  

 But I remember days when I would eat a candy bar and something else, or two candy bars, even.  I was out of control.  If I can eat some sugar and stay in control, that is probably where I want to be.  And to keep getting back in shape and more fit.

 I did not plan on having pie, but, for the first time in literally months, when something appeared at work, I was able to partake.  That was nice.  I hope I didn't have too much and there won't be a consequence I won't like.

 I had spinach salad for dinner, with no-calorie dressing.  That'll help.

 Stay tuned for tomorrow.

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